curahan tengah malam jam 2.15

I really dont know about my feelings at this time. I just feel a lot of things that make it difficult to unite. to be honest until now, even I can not forget you. for a moment I thought I could forget you but when it all, either because of what, from a very unreasonable can make me remember you. maybe this is gods way to intentionally make my stay was a connection with you. but really ruthless way of god, that actually made me even more tormented by these feelings. I just wanted to think of you as a fragment of an old story. but why in fact it seems I can not live without you. Okay if you had to feel the same I guess, but what if that happens is I who languished own quiet here alone you can only lament from a distance, which turned out to have someone else.

have you ever heard the term "soul mate in the hands of god"?
yes, I often hear and believe it. It also makes me confused about my feelings. how if I'm sure with you but it's another god wills? It also makes me confused about what I should do. if I should still pick you with a great risk that you are not for me or whether I should wait time, bury these feelings and hope that you did for me.